I tried to take a picture of my "cleaning supplies" earlier today and my phone camera got an error message.
I tried accessing my camera now, and it's fine...

Strange...

Hair Ideas/Wishlist

• Dyed black
• Highlights/Streaks in White and Silver
• Rat-tail on back right corner [Maybe with dye]
• Zebra or other pattern on back and sides
• Edward Scissorhands/New Wave Top Part
• Glitter [silver/black/white]
• Glow-in-the-dark [white]
• Cyber locks [one or a few]
• Antenae
• Bows [Hex bolt, Gothic, etc.]
• etc.

Misc./General Wishlist 03/26/09

• 7 vests
• iPhone  [new upcoming version 2.0/2.1]
  
  • Will completely change my life [mostly in an organizational sense]

Residence Wishlist

These are places where I would like to live or have properties at:

Local

• Downtown Miami


• Brickell


• Icon Brickell


• Four Seasons


• Icon Brickell


• Central Business District/Biscayne Wall


• Miami World Center


• Midtown


• North Beach


• South Beach


• Miami Lakes


• Downtown Kendall


• Coral Gables

Other

• New York


• Dubai


• Tokyo


• Las Vegas


• London


• Hawai'i

Gameboy/DS Wishlist

DSi
[Plays DS only]




Gameboy Micro
[Plays Gameboy Advance only]




Gameboy SP Classic NES Edition
[Plays Gameboy Advance/Gameboy Color/Gameboy]




Gameboy "Play it Loud!" Clear
[Plays Gameboy only]

My Icons/Symbols

Eyes
Barcodes
Microchips/Motherboards/Circuitry
RFID Chips
Hex Screws
Bacteriophage Virus
Radioactivity Symbol
Biohazard Symbol
Electroshock Symbol
Moon
Black/Siamese Cat
Ghost
Spirit
Spider
Crystal

When you think of an image, how do you see it? You are not seeing it with your eyes. How can you observe an image you conjured up in your head without your eyes? Are you seeing it with your third eye?

How does this differ from a "hallucination"?

I don't think science has really gotten into how the mind really works.

I've had a few hypnopompic hallucinations which looked clear as day.

How can one superimpose an object into everyday life? How is this done? How is this any similar than just "imagining" something.
Is this a "ghost object." Are you seeing something that WAS there at one point in time. Is reality collapsing and you are seeing the eventuality of another dimension? Is this the astral plane? How does one explain these "hallucinations."

These hallucinations happen very rarely and very briefly usually when I am in a paralyzed, hypnopompic state. I can't touch these objects to see if they are solid, so I cannot verify how "real" it is. Things look very vivid sometimes.

In reference to this, I got the idea of "hallucinating" a brand-new car. Is hallucinating a lot power of summoning objects into reality? But we don't know how to wield the power, so it just vanishes? Is this part of the 90% of the brain we don't use.

Is this why the mass population is constantly being mind controlled by the elite? To consistently make us forget about our inherent powers that lay dormant in us?

THE BRAIN WAS A DEVICE INSTALLED INTO OUR GENETICS MEANT FOR OBSCURING US FROM SENSING WHAT IS REALLY THERE...

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Balloon

I feel asleep at work in the room in the dark.
I saw a clear balloon with some random logo in the corner of the ceiling, right in front of me. It kind of "went crazy" and got like bigger and smaller. Then it moved towards me as it just vanished into thin air. It was as clear as day.

[Happy Anniversary]
[Birthday]

[Happy Anniversary]

I am a skyscraper

I am a skyscraper
eternally reaching for the sky.

New floors are being built every day
construction never ceases.

This project will not fail for any environmental protests or economic factors.

I am growing exponentially.

Soon I will touch the sky.

Soon I will surpass the sky and move on into space.

Interoffice Memo: Friendship Meeting Procedures

Effective immediately any social contact will occur in the following order [where relevant]:

[1] Misc. Online Community/Personals Site
[2] MySpace
[3] E-mail [optional]
[4] IM
[5] Phone
[6] Visitation

[Note: The starting point of this contact may vary.]

Forecast: Sex and Marriage With Robots by 2050

Finally...

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120 credit hours of school
Forty hours of work a week
Forty hours to finsh a video game
A half-hour episode
A three-hour movie
Over 100 hours of a TV series
77.8 years to live

[Does not compute]

Hotel-related Media

"Hotel Mario" video game

The hotels from Earthbound [default, Threed, and Moonside]

Inns and hotels from any RPG game

Inns and hotels from any other game [e.g. Sirena Beach from Super Mario Sunshine]

"Vacancy" movie

"The Suite Life of Zack & Cody"

Reminder: Alternatives for "cool" or "awesome"

I do not like using the words "cool" [or "awesome"], but I do so sometimes out of habit, since it is/was my "default" word.

This is a list of substitutes for those words:

nice

interesting

great

plusgood/doubleplusgood

neat

nifty

impressive

magnificent

[très] magnifique

approvable

terrific

excellent

stunning

remarkable

amazing [~]

wonderful [used with a smidgen of satire or sarcasm]

anti-warm[?]

inmoded [?]

[adjective signifying "indication of approval"]

dilemma #4-6024J.001

[sleep proposal rejected]

user has not met the criteria.

zzz.exe failed to load.

iPod/iPhone Wishlist

I'm debating whether or not to get a new iPhone and where I stand with iPods. Ever since the iPhone came out, there's no reason to get an iPod. The iPhone is like an iPod with phone capabilities. I have my cellphone and my iPod at all times with me, so it's best to just combine the two. But there are still some issues before I make the jump. There are also some capabilities that I wish to be added to the iPhone, for it to be the perfect product:

Online Radio

Satellite Radio

Custom Ringtones

Expanded selection for Ringtones [At least from the artists I want]

i need to [errand/goal #J-9927001.98AXMN to #J-9927029.07BVUI]

Labyrinth

I just finished seeing "Pan's Labyrinth."

[Possible Spoilers]

Is the fantasy world in "Pan's Labyrinth" real or is it imagined by Ofelia?

You can argue both sides. But maybe it's somewhere in the middle.
Maybe Ofelia was having paranormal, psychic experiences that were leading her to her fate. These other-worldly creatures, whether spirits, demons, or visions, took the form of fantastical creatures in Ofelia's mind, because that's what she was accustomed to from the books she read. Some things just had to happen in order for history to run its course and for everything to be right with the world. And she was a tool in that chain of events. Those entities or visions lead her to the inevitable.

I really related to her. Ofelia has this fantasy world which really contrasts with the cold, cruel reality. In spite of all the darkness and horror she witnesses, she wasn't really phased as much because she always had hope in the world she created for herself. In a time and a place where there is no technology and nothing to do to other than to endure the misery and monotony of her surroundings, she found sanity in her lack thereof. Even when she died she escaped to a beautiful fantastical kingdom where she was a princess reunited with her family.
This might not make sense, but I believe that the afterlife, what happens after people's death, is whatever they believe will happen to them.

I can relate to Ofelia because I'm the same way. While in the back of my head I am a skeptic and I know the world is made up of cruelty and monotony, I try to suppress those thoughts. Instead I make up my own reality and I make up my own world. I believe in things because they just are far more interesting to believe in than what's already there. I imbue everyday thoughts, objects, and events with life and make them real. I rearrange events and objects in my mind so that they have a far greater function and purpose than what they are really meant for. Sometimes, you can align things in such a way that it really feels as if you have this great purpose, like you are part of something, almost as if it were fate. I think that if you really believe in something so much, it eventually becomes true. You begin to filter everything that goes on through this reality you created for yourself, and everything falls into place. Ofelia's world wasn't necessarily a Utopian fantasy, it did include monsters, deceit, and such. Similarly, I like to revel in my paranoid and persecutory delusions.

It's funny to see things in an infinite number of different perspectives, to think "outside the box," then just look at everyone trapped in this reality they think they have no control over, and just smile complacently, because you have this knowledge that no one else has. People don't seem to realize that they have more control over their reality than they think they do. They just drudge along in their monotony, living life like a robot. I do find our mechanical [post]modernity/monotony to be beautiful in it's intricate, systematic, bureaucratic, imperfect perfection. But to appreciate this, you do have to step outside of it so you can see the full picture and how everything perfectly aligns and works together. I can step in and out of my reality and the world's collective reality whenever I want. But when I go back into "the real world," I can do so cognizant of how ridiculous/inferior it really is [at least in comparison to mine].

I did notice that eyes were a recurring theme in the movie. Ofelia had her own special, unique way of looking at the world through her eyes, while I have my own way of looking at things through my eyes.

So open your eyes, to your own reality.




P.S. It's really hard to make sense out of nonsense. It's hard to explain or even understand myself sometimes. Sometimes something "clicks" and it makes perfect sense, but I just can't put it into words and the more I try to explain it, the less sense it makes.

:)

This report goes to POLYANNA.