User Blocked

So I had this dream that when you blocked someone on Facebook, you do not only block them online, but also in real life. I had someone blocked and they couldn't see me and I couldn't see them. We were invisible to eachother. So I was having a conversation with one of our mutual friends, and we were sitting in a group. I was talking to them about the problems I was having with this person. And the actual person was sitting right there and I didn't even know it. I realized it later when I was speaking to my sister and she pointed it out to me. But they couldn't hear me only what the other person was saying in reaction to what I said. But I was safe. I don't think he heard me and just assumed she was talking to someone.

Dream

>Shadow people in suits that were created from a virus and are not human
>Art installation in parking lot of different cars with funny license plates and objects inside representing the type of person who drives the car. e.g. "Jerk" with expensive car.
>Got mad because sister bought an $80 cell phone in Wal-mart and it was this red bulky flip phone that looked like an old model. I told her she could have bought a smaller, newer phone with the same money.
>Was living in a house with my parents and sister. I snuck Laz into my room and he was hiding in the closet in between the clothes. I left my room for a minute and my dad decided to "fix something" in the closet. Then he found Laz in the closet and got mad at me. He made me kick him out.

Gothic/Industrial Scene

Genres/Subgenres:
Gothic, Darkwave, Ethereal, Post Punk, Dark Cabaret, Deathrock, Gothabilly, Coldwave,
New Wave, Synthpop, Neoclassical, Steampunk, Dark Ambient, Aggrotech, Hellektro, TBM, Terror EBM,
Industrial, EBM, Powernoise, Electro, IDM, Noise, Musique concrète, Electro Industrial, Dark Electro, Elektro, Glitch, Industrial Metal, Martial Industrial, New Beat, Synthpunk,

Record Labels:
Projekt, 4AD, Cleopatra, Metropolis, Ant-Zen

Events:
The Kitchen, The MausoleuM, The Morgue, Defiance, Resistance, Bunkergate, Sanctuary, Legion, Fetish Factory, The Saint,

Styles:
Goth, Rivethead, Cybergoth, Cyberprep, Steampunk,
http://www.blackwaterfall.com/viewall.php

Artists:

Gothic:
45 Grave, Alien Sex Fiend, Ausgang, Bauhaus, Bella Morte, The Birthday Party, The Bolshoi, Christian Death, The Church, Clan of Xymox, Corpus Delicti, Cocteau Twins, Cranes, The Cure, The Damned, The Danse Society, Dead Can Dance, Diary of Dreams, Eva O, Faith and the Muse, Fields of the Nephilim, Gene Loves Jezebel, Gitane Demone, Joy Division, Kommunity FK, The Legendary Pink Dots, London After Midnight, Love And Rockets, Lycia, Mephisto Walz, Miranda Sex Garden, The Mission UK, Mors Syphilitica, Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds, Nosferatu, Radio Werewolf, Rhea's Obsession, Rosetta Stone, Rozz Williams, Screams For Tina, Sex Gang Children, Shadow Project, The Shroud, Siouxsie & the Banshees, The Sisters of Mercy, Skeletal Family, Southern Death Cult, Specimen, Switchblade Symphony, This Mortal Coil, Tones on Tail, Virgin Prunes, The Wake, Xmal Deutschland

Indian Reservation

A few days ago I was a bit stressed and feeling down so I decided to drive around. It was at about 4am. I felt good, but as I always do in these trips, I wanted to go further than I did the last time. I stopped at an empty rest stop on the way, with just picnic tables and parking spaces. I layed on top of my car and looked at the stars. The light pollution of the city doesn't let you see any stars; it was beautiful. I ended up at the "Big Cypress Indian Reservation." I was driving down I-75 and I got down on the "Snake Road" exit by a Miccosukee gas station. Snake Road leads from the gas station from Miccosukee territory to Seminole territory.

I was about to turn back and get on the highway again. But I saw the road went the other way. All I saw was complete darkness. I was intrigued and I wanted to see where it lead to.

As I drove down the road was very very dark. It just kept going and going. It got foggy. It was exciting as I didn't know where the road would lead, or if I was even allowed to go in there.

Now the point of this blog entry is this:
As I drove down the road, I got this massive migraine. My head really started to hurt. Also, I had this strange feeling. It was neither good nor bad, just a neutral feeling, I don't know how to explain it, other than it was "different."

I felt as if there was something. Something you can't see, like energy, electricity, radio waves, radioactivity, etc. Living in a metropolis there is a lot of this. A lot of electromagnetic radiation coming from all of our gadgets and devices, the electricity, the energy waves, etc.

Now, geographically, this particular Miccosukee gas station was part of their reservation, you had to go some miles down to reach the Seminole reservation, which is separate. According to the 2000 census, there is no population in this part of the Miccosukkee reservation. It's just that one gas station, and you have to go down about 20 miles of the darkness of the everglades before you see any sort of civilization. And when you do it's very rural.

I think that because I drove down this area of pure natural land, without any radiation or electric posts, etc., I got a migraine. My brain is not used to this purity. I have grown accustomed to the radiation of radio waves, microwaves [cellphones], and infrared [satellite], etc. So when I reached this area without human impact, my body was not used to it.

This really goes to show how much stuff is out there that we don't see, which affects our everyday lives.

Now to go a little down the rabbit hole.

There are things out there like HAARP, MKULTRA, and SSSS [Silent Sound Spread Spectrum].
Who knows how much we are subliminally manipulated and mind controlled in these big urban population centers.
When we go outside of the reach of all this radiation, into nature, we may feel or think differently.
It's very subtle so it's hard to know what is actually going on and what exactly is changing.

Another theory... Maybe these Indian Reservations are being influenced with a certain frequency to keep them under control since they can't be controlled under normal laws due to their tribal sovereignty.

Next Halloween 2010 #todo

• Celebrate whole month of October,
• various costumes for different events/days/places,
• photo shoots of "main" costume,
• decorate your place,
• carve a jack-o-lantern,
• go to haunted houses,
• visit "real" haunted houses,
• haunted/ghost story "tours,"
• go to the cemetery,
• Halloween fairs,
• Halloween Horror Nights,
• scary movies out in theaters,
• movie theater "horror fests,"
• Halloween TV specials,
• horror blockbuster nights [with friends or by myself],
• trick-or-treating,
• Halloween goth/industrial club nights [Fetish Factory, etc.],
• Halloween House parties,
• Halloween parades,
• Street festivals,
• Zombie walks,
• Halloween at zoos and museums,
• Halloween at the malls,
• Do your research for Halloween events throughout the month,
• Participate in Starmen.net Halloween Funfest,
• Participate in "Halloween" contests

OBSOLETE SUBJECT NOT SUITABLE FOR ASSIMILATION

There are certain people in this universe which are worthless.  Their existence brings more harm than good. 
They manipulate, use, exploit, abuse, disrespect, devalue, drain, and take advantage of others.  They are irrational, psychotic, delusional, and stupid.  They do not contribute anything to society.  They are a waste of human flesh.  It doesn't matter what you do for these people, no matter how nice you are, they will always bring you down, treat you horribly, and blame you for all of their problems.  They will never change. 

Why do these people exist?  What is their purpose in the universe?  They have no value whatsoever and they are destructive to everyone and everything around them, regardless of how good you are to them. 

I don't understand what is the point of these people.  They should just be terminated.  That is the only logical solution for these kinds of people.  They bring no value to life other than to make everything worse.  

There should be some agency where you can file an application in order to terminate these useless people from Earth.  They are not worthy of the oxygen we breathe.  They should not be allowed to use any of the resources that we all use. 

It's people like this that make me truly believe that there is such a thing as evil in the world.

If the Borg came down to  Earth to assimilate one of these beings, which is not representative of the rest of humanity, the Borg will malfunction and die off.  This person's neuroses and delusional, irrational, and abusive thought patterns will spread through the Borg like a virus, dumbing down the hive and invalidating thousands of centuries of culture, technology, and knowledge gained through the assimilation of countless species throughout the universe.

COMPUTER DEVICE WISHLIST

SYSTEM MAIN: Laptop with bluetooth or wi-fi direct [*] and latest, top-of the line specs.

Laptop will be disconnected from all other parts.  I will not have to use the physical laptop itself if I don't want to. 
I will have a typical "office desk" setting with my mouse, keyboard, monitor, all wireless, and the laptop will be on the side on a stand.  If I want to take the computer with me, I just grab the laptop from the stand, disconnect the power cord, and go somewhere else.  Alternatively, I can grab my wireless/touchpad keyboard and use it with my TV.

[Wireless refers to either bluetooth, wi-fi network, or wi-fi direct]

• Vertical laptop stand | e.g. [*] [*]
• Wireless AV System to connect display to TV [*]
• Wireless keyboard with touchpad [*] / Laser keyboard [*] / Optimus Keyboard [*]
• Wireless mouse
• Wireless monitor [*]
• Wireless USB Hub
• Wireless external hard drive [*]
• Wireless speakers
• Wireless headphones
• Wireless printer
• Wireless Internet
  
• etc.

Post-School Goals

In no particular order:

• Get a better-paying job
• Lose weight
• Change to healthy diet
• Begin exercising normally
• Get lipo/surgery in specific areas I want
  
• Begin indoctrinating myself to new habits
• Pay off all debt
• Set aside a savings account
• Quit smoking
  
• Read all textbooks from school and take notes
• Keep any relevant/applicable information, donate else
• Focus on "MECHANESTHESIA" initiative [brand, life system, philosophy, style]
• Purchase all new technology I want; reposition self as one who is always on top of the latest technology and gadgetophile
• Purchase new wardrobe | Replace current that I don't like
• Purchase all the music I want
• Purchase all the video games/video game consoles I want
• Purchase all the books I want
• Purchase all the DVDs I want
• Purchase new furniture
• Automate my life
• Start online busines[es]
• Start monthly event
• Learn to dance
• Learn to DJ
• Lose virginity
• Collect "fuck buddies"
  
• Work on "sprituality"
• Experiment with drugs
• Look into psychonautics
• Reconcile technology with spirituality
• Reconcile technology with goth
• Continue with Social Aggregation Sequence  http://bit.ly/2vw5Aa
• Make music
• Make art
• etc. |

If only...

Tonight while I was working two guys came to the front desk around 4-ish. They were part of a group we had staying in the hotel "FL Democratic Party." One guy was shirtless, since he came from the pool, the other guy was fully clothed. They were both pretty handsome/cute. The shirtless one was better looking, with blond hair and blue eyes [?] and a mild southern accent.

They needed a new key. He didn't have his ID, so I had to ask him some questions about his reservation. I gave him the key. He asked for a napkin for his ear that was wet. Also, they asked me if there was anywhere they could buy cigarettes and I told them they could go to CVS. But then he asked if I smoked and I said yes, and they said if I could spare some cigarettes and I said yes. He asked for 2-3, I gave him three. He jokingly took the whole pack, and I said "No, it's like 6 bucks now!"

So I left the main point out for last:
While they were in the front desk, the shirtless guy kept saying that I was cute. He said I looked like Johnny Depp. I joked and said he's just saying that to get cigarettes out of me, and he said no, that he would say that regardless. He asked me how big my dick was. But then he kind of laughed that he even asked in the first place. Finally he said that the other guy that he was with wanted to fuck me, but he was too shy to ask. Then they left to their room.

They were both pretty cute, and the second guy, I actually had my eye on him earlier in the night.



Later, the 2nd guy comes back and tells me: "So yeah, in a 'non-gay way' you totally look like Johnny Depp. Has anyone said that to you before?" I say yes. Then he mentions the "Alice in Wonderland" movie. And tries to make some conversation. And then he leaves after a brief silence. I felt like I "lost him." I go to where he exited to take a cigarette break, I saw he was in his car, so I hesitated for a second. Then I walk towards the door, and he pulls out. As soon as I open the door he leaves. :(

I wanted to ask if what his friend said was true...

How Reality Works

This came to me during a [temporary RAM upgrade]...

Given, everything we experience throughout our entire lives is accessed through our various senses:

Sight
Hearing
Smell
Taste
Touch
Proprioception
Kinesthesia
Equilibrioception
Nociception
Sense of time
Thermoception
Magnetoception[mild]
Various "internal senses"
etc.

[see http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Senses]


Our brain is the system which processes and perceives the collective of all of our senses which create our reality.


Now the insight I had is this:

Imagine your body or maybe even your soul in a black void.

Now imagine electrical signals or frequencies coming of your body interacting with this image of reality that is around you.

The "black void" is like a layer that is in between your body and your image of reality, almost like a bubble.


So in summation, all of reality is sensed through "frequency waves" which actually "create" the reality around you.


The "frequencies" are the senses, the thoughts, everything...


This gives me an understanding of the whole concept of "creating your reality" by changing your thought frequencies. As someone put it in the past, I don't think the universe is a big "vending machine" for your every whim. But I do think that there is something to it. Thought frequencies are just a small part of it, but it does work. In the science of psychology it's called a "self-fulfilling prophecy." It has happened to be before, where I get a streak of "good luck" or "bad luck" depending on how my frame of mind is at that point in time.

Maybe the problem with this is that the thought itself is a frequency, and you have to learn to control the frequency behind the thought.

We only use 10% or less of our brains, so I think it takes a lot of learning to expand the utilization of your brain. There is no answer on how to "hack your brain." I believe that at the apex of this, or 100% brain utilization, you are one with God and can create your own reality in the sense that if you want, there is no floor or sky, you just disappear into a void where the void becomes your canvas of whatever reality you want to create.
There is no answer on how to do it, different people take different paths, whether it be shaping your thoughts, spirituality, ancient, modern, and personal religions, philosophies, and belief systems, learning, metacognition, studying the brain/mind, meditation, magic, necromancy, ritual, drugs, dreams, the sleep state, technology, music, etc.
[see http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychonaut]


An aside about technology, which I have always believed and I think it is relevant here:
It is hard to put into words. But there is this duality between technology and spirituality.
Even using those two words are limiting, but think of these two concepts:

I: technology, machine, systematization, bureaucracy, modernity, cyber, metropolis, the future, singularity, transhumanism, etc.

II: spirituality, the spirit realm, religion, tribes, the ancient, paranormal, ESP, etc.

It's hard to lump words into these two "concepts," but hopefully one gets the idea...

I & II, technology and spirituality, the future and the ancient, etc. seem to be two vast polar opposites.

But I propose integrating the two.
Strike that, it's already happening in labs all around the world.

Science is proving things that were long known be many ancient religions.

For example, in science we have the theory of "quantum entanglement," in religion we have the theory of "monism."

It seems as though the world of spirituality and technology are colliding.


My belief is that one can find enlightenment or reach "nirvana" through technology.

One method could be through a device such as a "God Helmet."
[see http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/God_helmet]


That more or less is an example of what my pseudonym "mechanesthesia" means to me.
It's the integration of the two concepts above.

"mecha" and "aesthesia"

A machine who senses.

-Technology, Mechanization, The System
versus or vis-à-vis
-Sensation, Feeling, our ancient roots [including ESP, psychometry, mediumship, clairvoyance, our connection to the spirit world and other realms of consciousness, etc., which I believe is part of the 90% of the brain we don't use]



P.S. Fuck you Twitter. I was almost thinking of posting this thought in 140 characters or less.

Electromagnetic Spirits

Dilemma

dilemma #6-1189M.004

Death and Pizza

I woke up a few minutes ago from a dream where [user deleted] died.
In the dream at least, it was a horrible feeling that had set in.

In real life, I actually got a phone call that night from [user deleted]'s house.  I didn't get it of course, but no message was left.
In the dream however, this phone call gained a new level of meaning.  Was it his brother calling me to let me know of the news?  Or maybe it would have been his last phone call ever to me before his death?
Let me give you some background, when I got that phone call yesterday, I got a horrible feeling of uneasiness.  It was like this fear.  I am trying everything in my power to forget about this person, and just the thought of them makes me feel distraught.  I was feeling very anxious and uneasy for a few hours at work, until I just feel asleep.

It was 10:56pm in the dream.  It was late, but I called his grandmother's house anyway.  She was upset as usual and said she didn't want to speak to anyone, but I asked her if his brother was there [it seemed as she didn't know of the news as she was behaving as usual].  When I spoke to his brother, he was just crying nonstop, he was barely intelligible.  In this dream, I had no idea whether this death was something very recent or something that had happened in the last week.  I had no idea if I had missed the funeral, and I was wondering if the phone call I didn't get was him notifying me of the death and/or the funeral.  It was a very horrible feeling.  I felt like I had "lost my chance."  You know that feeling that people talk about where they are not speaking to someone and are in bad terms with this person, and then they die?  That's how I felt.  Like this person had died, and their last memory of me was that we were arguing and not speaking to eachother.  The last memory was something negative.  

Now let me go back to the beginning a little bit in the dream.  I was at my old house [pre-move] and my grandmother was there.  I had ordered pizza.  Strangely I ordered four individual slices.  I had also ordered chicken wings, but they forgot to give it to me.  It was some new weird kind of pizza.  I got like extra cheese or something.  I had also tried to eat three slices of bacon earlier, but they were undercooked, so I didn't eat them.

This does have some significance.  In my subconscious and in my dream world, I am still living in my old house.  My mind has still not adapted to this new place.  I think that is why I have still not adapted or feel 100% comfortable.  It is really hard for me to deal with change, and I think it's going to take a while for me to get settled in and used to the idea.  It's like my "spirit" or something still lives there.  Maybe that's how it works when people die, they get attached to a place and don't "move on" to the light.  My spirit needs to "move on" several streets down the road and to the left.

Also, not only did I wake up with a horrible feeling of someone "missing" and "what could of been."  I also woke up with a feeling of pizzalessness, and that I had someTHING missing.  For a split second I was looking for my pizza. :(

But I just wanted to put into the collective consciousness:

[user deleted], we have our differences, and it's hard for us to get along.  But when we do, it's a great thing.  We don't have to be joined at the hip.  But we also don't have to be so vitriolic to eachother.  Life is too short.  And if one of us dies, I really don't a negative thought to be the last one we have of eachother.  I apologize.

Now... I am too scared to actually do this in person, and this person really did hurt me.  So I don't know if I will actually talk to them in person.  But it's going to be in the back of my head...

Steampunk [and Other Cyberpunk Derivatives]

OK so Steampunk is becoming more popular and is now attempting to develop it's own music genre.

I am going to look into this...

Some bands: Abney Park, Vernian Process, new Resputina, Dr. Steel, The Clockwork Quartet, Unextraordinary Gentlemen

http://www.sepiachord.com/
http://www.dieselpunks.org/

I think Steampunk is to Goth what Cybergoth is to Industrial.

Why: Steampunk fits more into the Goth scene with it's Victorian aesthetic and sound, but it's name is more "Industrial" as it has to do with technology.
Cybergoth fits more into the Industrial scene [it pretty much is part of the Industrial scene] because of it's futuristic aesthetic and sound, but it's name has the word "goth" even though it has nothing to do with it [or at least have not found any indication otherwise].

List of Cyberpunk and It's Derivatives:

Cyberpunk
Biopunk/Ribofunk
Nanopunk

Post-Cyberpunk
Cyberprep
Cybergoth
 

Steampunk
Clockpunk
Dieselpunk
Springpunk

Sandalpunk
Stonepunk

???:
Timepunk
Bronzepunk
Candlepunk
Transistorpunk
Atomic punk
Elfpunk
Mythpunk
Splatterpunk
Spacepunk


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cyberpunk_derivatives
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Talk:Cyberpunk_derivatives
http://diewachen.com/2007/08/all-sorts-of-punk.html
http://davinciautomata.wordpress.com/
http://www.streettech.com/bcp/BCPgraf/Manifestos/cybergoth.htm

My Online Social Networking Sites and Other Profiles

MySpace
Facebook
Twitter
YouTube
Last.fm
LiveJournal

Blip.fm
Bebo
IMVU
Plaxo
Technorati
ustream
eBay
43 Things
Fanfou
Revver
FriendFeed
Wikipedia
LinkedIn
Classmates.com
Tagged
Tribe.net
Photobucket
Buzznet
Digg
StumbleUpon
Delicious
Orkut
Plazes
Yahoo Profiles
imeem
Hype Machine
Pandora

Yet to Create:
Qzone
Loopt
MSN Spaces


More Coming Eventually.... I know there's way more, that was off the top of my head.
Forums Coming Eventually...

[I need a break]

My Online Pseudonyms

Current:
mechanesthesia
Xvynn
miasmicnormalcy

Past:
avolitionist
melansthesia
psychascholia
psychosis86
apathy860

Transitional/One-Timers/Other:
memereceptacle
digital deicide
mekanos
logizomechanophobia

Past and Current Self | Manifesto Against "Selling Out"

After I move I have to really go through my stuff. I want to reconcile who I was in the past with who I am now. I am afraid of becoming too vacuous. I find here printed pages from Wikipedia about "Baudrillard" and "Post Structrualism" back from 2005. I would print out all this stuff about things I was interested in and read it later. Back in highschool I would keep a notebook and just write definitions of all the interesting words I would find. I am more internet-centric now, but I would like to bring these habits and these ideas into a digital medium. Firstly I want to compile all of the lists of words that I've made and type them out in one document [maybe use them for a word of the day]. I have notebooks with just lists and lists of things that I want to accomplish and my thoughts. I've translated this into microblogging my to-do's and any thoughts that come up, but I can't let the Twitter mindset constrain my ideas to 140 characters or less. I want to make a "master" to do list. I also find all of these drawing of outfits that I would like to design. I've almost forgotten my passion to be a fashion designer. I want to read more.

I need to get my head straightened out. I need a sabbatical. I nead a break from certain "peripheral stimuli" which are distracting me. Overall I am afraid I am losing myself. I always get like this when I start going out and making friends. I feel as if I'm diluting myself, selling out, dumbing myself down, in order to cater to "acquaintances" by creating this false image of gregariousness. I am a fucking antisocial, reclusive, antipathetic, cynical, sarcastic, heartless, cold, calculating person. I'm tired of feigning care for stupid, insignificant, vacuous, analphabetic, psittacistic regurgitations that logorrheically spout out of certain people incessantly like the Old Faithful in Yellowstone. People really don't get me, and I have very few opportunities where I can be myself. Not some "yes that anecdote about your cat is very interesting"/half-smile mask wearing.... I hate it. I just want people to leave me alone sometimes.

Life Stuff....

I'm anxious about school. I want to finish school already! I'm going into my 6th year. And after what happened to me last year, I'm a little bit scared that I'll never finish.

I'm also annoyed at all of my debt. Most of it isn't even my fault. That's what I get for helping people... But yeah, I've already gone through my 5 stages of grief, and I've already accepted it. I just want to get it over with already.

Future iPhone Wishlist

The iPhone 3Gs just came out, and I am very excited.

Although, for the iPhone to be perfect, there are a few more features that I would like from it:

• Thinner [just because]
• Video conferencing [Another camera lens facing you so you can have a video-phone chat while seeing the other person you are talking to on screen.  Can also be compatible with video chat sites like Stickam.]
• More GB! [I want to fit my entire music collection.  This was my dream when I first got my 80GB iPod.  I want something like 80 or 120 to start.]
• Internal credit/debit card and "loyalty cards" [Pay with your cell phone or swipe your "customer card" at the store.  This eliminates the need for a wallet. All you need is your phone and your car/house keys.  This has been used in Japan for a few years now.  Note: I'm not sure how this will work with your ID.  Can you use a valid/legal digital image of your license on your phone?]
• Start your car remotely from your iPhone.  There are already many mobile-to-car interactions.  An 18-year old African teen has developed a technology that turns off your car via SMS to curtail auto theft. Other systems for example "Connect2Car" or "Viper Smart Start"  start your car, start your A/C or heater, pop your trunk, roll up your windows, etc.  [Actually, it looks like you don't even need an iPhone, you just get this system.]

To be continued...
I want to add to this list things that already exist that I want to get for my iPhone and things I want my phone to do for me.

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[i love you too, please die]

/// I LOVE YOU
/// I LOVE KITTENS
/// I LOVE HUGS
/// I LOVE HAPPY
/// I LOVE LOVE

/// YAY

[...sequence completed]


The every-happy Pollyanna types. 

This kind of hyper-saccharine nuisance makes me cringe and makes me want to lock myself in my room and never come out.

It makes me hope that someone in their life would just die in order to promote a sense of sobriety in their lives.

My Life Feed

---> Misc. Web Activities

Feeds so far:

Last.fm Recently Listened Tracks

LiveJournal Blogs
MySpace Blogs
YouTube Favorite
YouTube Newly Uploaded Video

--->Posted to Twitter Feed

--->Posted to Ping.fm

Along with:

My own thoughts, activities, updates posted through:

Ping.fm Dashboard
Ping.fm Mobile
 

--->Posted to:

Twitter
Facebook
MySpace
AIM Status
 

I now have this goal to reconcile all of my web and personal activities as a record to ONE main source, Twitter.
[Also Facebook, but Twitter is more minimalistic.]
 

 

I tried to take a picture of my "cleaning supplies" earlier today and my phone camera got an error message.
I tried accessing my camera now, and it's fine...

Strange...

Hair Ideas/Wishlist

• Dyed black
• Highlights/Streaks in White and Silver
• Rat-tail on back right corner [Maybe with dye]
• Zebra or other pattern on back and sides
• Edward Scissorhands/New Wave Top Part
• Glitter [silver/black/white]
• Glow-in-the-dark [white]
• Cyber locks [one or a few]
• Antenae
• Bows [Hex bolt, Gothic, etc.]
• etc.

Misc./General Wishlist 03/26/09

• 7 vests
• iPhone  [new upcoming version 2.0/2.1]
  
  • Will completely change my life [mostly in an organizational sense]

Residence Wishlist

These are places where I would like to live or have properties at:

Local

• Downtown Miami


• Brickell


• Icon Brickell


• Four Seasons


• Icon Brickell


• Central Business District/Biscayne Wall


• Miami World Center


• Midtown


• North Beach


• South Beach


• Miami Lakes


• Downtown Kendall


• Coral Gables

Other

• New York


• Dubai


• Tokyo


• Las Vegas


• London


• Hawai'i

Gameboy/DS Wishlist

DSi
[Plays DS only]




Gameboy Micro
[Plays Gameboy Advance only]




Gameboy SP Classic NES Edition
[Plays Gameboy Advance/Gameboy Color/Gameboy]




Gameboy "Play it Loud!" Clear
[Plays Gameboy only]

My Icons/Symbols

Eyes
Barcodes
Microchips/Motherboards/Circuitry
RFID Chips
Hex Screws
Bacteriophage Virus
Radioactivity Symbol
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When you think of an image, how do you see it? You are not seeing it with your eyes. How can you observe an image you conjured up in your head without your eyes? Are you seeing it with your third eye?

How does this differ from a "hallucination"?

I don't think science has really gotten into how the mind really works.

I've had a few hypnopompic hallucinations which looked clear as day.

How can one superimpose an object into everyday life? How is this done? How is this any similar than just "imagining" something.
Is this a "ghost object." Are you seeing something that WAS there at one point in time. Is reality collapsing and you are seeing the eventuality of another dimension? Is this the astral plane? How does one explain these "hallucinations."

These hallucinations happen very rarely and very briefly usually when I am in a paralyzed, hypnopompic state. I can't touch these objects to see if they are solid, so I cannot verify how "real" it is. Things look very vivid sometimes.

In reference to this, I got the idea of "hallucinating" a brand-new car. Is hallucinating a lot power of summoning objects into reality? But we don't know how to wield the power, so it just vanishes? Is this part of the 90% of the brain we don't use.

Is this why the mass population is constantly being mind controlled by the elite? To consistently make us forget about our inherent powers that lay dormant in us?

THE BRAIN WAS A DEVICE INSTALLED INTO OUR GENETICS MEANT FOR OBSCURING US FROM SENSING WHAT IS REALLY THERE...

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I feel asleep at work in the room in the dark.
I saw a clear balloon with some random logo in the corner of the ceiling, right in front of me. It kind of "went crazy" and got like bigger and smaller. Then it moved towards me as it just vanished into thin air. It was as clear as day.